Monday, January 13, 2014

Putting On My Big Girl Panties

Hello 2014! Welcome to a new year filled with new resolutions! New promises to make to yourself to start doing something good. Or in some cases to stop doing something bad.  You know like vowing to eat better, exercise more, stop drinking pop, yada, yada, yada. Have you made yours? 

It's been years since I've made one, but for some reason on the way to my BFF's house on NYE, I just blurted one out. Just one and a very simple one at that - my New Years Resolution is to be a better person. I'm going to do my best to be a better wife, mom, daughter, sister, friend...you get the idea right? 

It's only been 13 days and I admittedly have failed a few times already. I never thought this was going to be easy, because living with an ADHD family is like living in a war zone. Battles are constantly brewing among us. I'm not completely delusional - I figured someone would eventually break me down. 

But do you know what the beauty of this resolution is? Being the best ME means that I recognize life is not perfect and by no means am I perfect. It means that I will not let a moment of defeat keep me down. I will stand up, put on my big girl panties (I don't know why, but I have never liked saying panties!), march back onto that battlefield and continue to fight the good fight.  

This is not going to be easy. I know I have a long road ahead of me to become the best me, but I'm up for the challenge! In fact, I think my first challenge will be to reduce how many times I hear "I hate you!" and "You're the meanest Mom ever!" to five times a day, instead of the 10 plus times I hear now!

Oh boy, I hear a battle brewing that needs my attention. Wish me luck.